I have all A's so far in my classes. Mostly low A's but who cares. Except one damn class, the online one. I have an 89.59 and I can't talk to the professor until Monday. I got a bad grade on the final assignment. However, I spent the most time on it compared to every other assignment. I should have made an A in this class. I can't decide who to bo more pissed off at: myself or the professor who set up a really shitty grading scale and online class. I wanna cry.

ISO:

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I started working on the transformer hat for Kiddo. He decided he wants it to be 3 colors, black, blue and grey. I've gotten to the color rounds and everything seems ok but I've found a problem with my initial assumption that I can do it in three colors (pattern only calls for 2) He wants the decepticon to be grey and the autobot face to be blue. The black(background hat color) and grey are both DK weight, the blue is sock weight. That's problem #1..I probably won't make guage. I don't have a problem buying new yarn to fix that. the real problem is that if I use 3 colors, I have to carry 3 colors! NOT FUN! So, I have a couple options

1 tell kiddo tough shit, the hat is only gonna be 2 colors (definately not my favorite, I know I spoil him)
2 carry all three colors all the way around, get crazy hand cramps, and eventually feel an overwhelming urge to never knit again
3 do it intarsia style...I think thats what its called. basically start a new strip of yarn for each color row. It will leave shitloads of ends to weave in but the hat is going to be double thick (there is a lining) and it won't show, even on the inside.
4 knit the hat flat and only carry color in that color's section...may invovle crazy alterations to the pattern and invisible seaming.

ok, what do ya'll think?? are there any options I haven't thought of?

I'm sitting at barnes n noble...been here for about 2 hours and accomplished absolutely nothing!! I am supposed to be writing a paper but I just can't make myself concentrate...or want to do this. I'm about half way and the paper is due on Thursday. I'm tempted to give it my most half assed effort and call it a day. If I get a B or C on it I would probably still make an A in the class. I don't even think the professor gives a shit what kind of info we put in it...we just have to follow directions. And if I don't get this out of the way I'm afraid I will procrastinate studying for all my tests...some on Thurs and some next week. Either way, I'm snowballing the procrastination and that is not good!! I really gotta figure out a way to stop procrastinating...maybe I'll do that tomorrow...hahahahaha!

ok..here I go...putting half my ass into a paper that I could give two shits about! YAY!

spend ten damn minutes waiting for the freaking page to load!! I HATE dial-up and I want a computer with wireless internet!!! Maybe Santa will hear my plea and grant me my wish...hahaha...yeah right! I am my own Santa

Its hard to know which sucks worse...being broke? or getting called in at 4:15 to work from 5 to 10?

I forgot how hard it is to work. My feet hurt. And, yes I realize I am complaining about something I've been trying to get for a while.

I'm a giant baby.

I've requested an info packet from the Army. They have a dietetic internship/masters program that looks really interesting. They help pay for you to move, give you a housing allowance, you pay for your education through committing to 4 years in the Army and I would be an officer. A low ranking officer but an officer none the less. Its just as competitive as most of the other internships but I'm working on making myself more competitive so regardless of where I decide to apply I'll hopefully be in the 50% of applicants that get internships. 

I haven't talked to hubby at all about it. I'm going to wait to get the packet and read about it and maybe talk to a recruiter or something. I want to go into the conversation armed with data. Moving is going to be hard on him regardless but its possible that with the Army he wouldn't  have to work and what man doesn't want sugar-momma, right?? Whereas with any of the other programs, except the UNF option, we would have to move regardless and on our own money and he would still have to find a job wherever we went. He really wants me to just get a Bachelors and not be a registered dietitian. I feel like that if I am going to spend that kind of money I should go all the way and get the certification even if it is a lot of work.

I have been really lazy lately and I am sure that it will come back to haunt me. I have so much that has to be done but I'm in one of my "I just want to stare at a wall for hours on end" phases and so I'm struggling just to get through a day without sleeping or staring at a wall for hours on end. I don't even want to watch TV...too much effort involved. Now that is lazy! I think I just need a mental break but its not likely that I will get one anytime soon.

I finished my shawl last night!! Woohoo! I picked up the clapotis I had started making for my sister and maybe I can get that one done too...maybe even get it done in a reasonable amount of time.

Also, this morning I did yoga. It was only about 20 minutes but I was very proud of myself. I had to get up at 5:15 to have enough time to get everything done and I may get up at 5 am in the future cause I felt rushed. But it was nice. Now, all I have to do is walk more. Maybe walking Tues and Thurs is enough during the week and then if I walk on Sat and Sun that would be ok. I dunno. I feel so busy even though I know I've had times in my life where I was much busier... like when I had a job. Part of my problem is a bit of disorganization. I try but I'm just naturally very messy. Oh well...not gonna tackle that beast anytime soon.

Overall, a good start to the week I would say.

I've had 3 exams this week and its been not fun. I squeeked by with 90's on all my exams but I'm not very happy with myself. I could've gotten a 95 on my Bioorganic chem exam but I made some stupid mistakes that I now have to stop punishing myself for. The other two tests were ok but at least now I know how to study for them so I should be more prepared. My online class is kickin' my ass cause there are a lot of little quizes and I'm having trouble taking them really seriously because its only 10 questions...but there are not exams in this class so I need to stop being such a slacker and put more effort into them.

I'm managing stress a little better but I need to start doing yoga at least every other day. Also, its planting time and I am sooo not ready. I think I have to skip planting anything this year and hopefully I will get things a little more under control and be able to plant in the spring. I'm very sad about it but if I start slacking on school now I'm gonna mess myself up.

I'm getting farther on my shawl...yay! I want to finish it this weekend but I have 2 lab reports due and I feel nervous about getting behind...

Do you see a theme?? I have got to figure out a way to manage my anxiety/stress!!

Last week I woke up with a horrible pain in my side. At first I thought I had pulled a muscle or something. Then I started getting alternating chills and hot flashes…and a fever. Over the weekend it got worse to the point where I was having a hard time standing up straight and everything I ate made me feel worse. So by Saturday I could only stomach yogurt and that is all I ate Sunday. Monday I went to the DR. I have colitis. Horrible stuff….then I had a reaction to one of the two antibiotics they put me on. And, I started my period the day after I got the antibiotics…But I was able to get Chantix (to quit smoking) which I will start when I’m done with the antibiotics. I have lost almost 8 lbs cause for 3 or 4 days I ate almost nothing and even now I am not eating normal amounts although I am not in any pain. YAY! The DR said it was probably a combo of eating too much popcorn (which I am sort of allergic to or at least it irritates me) and the abundance of stress that I am feeling. So as soon as I am better I have to start doing yoga and walking to try and minimize the stress….I think that will help anyways. If it doesn’t then I have no idea what to do. Most days I am consumed with anxiety about classes. Also, thinking about the fact that the Masters program only accepts 12 students out of the 145 current nutrition majors. Or I end up thinking about how if I don’t get into the Masters program I have to find an internship which only 50% of applicants get. Oh and how I will probably have to relocate in less than 2 years…and with my luck I will have to move to Alaska or some other insanely remote place. At this point my blood pressure goes up and I get a little nauseous. Fun.

So I’m pretty much better and I have 3 exams next week. I hate the first exam because usually I don’t do that great. I study but it’s hard to know exactly what they are looking for until you take the exam. Then usually I do a lot better on the next set of exams ‘cause I have an idea of the format. And of course there are only 3 or 4 exams in each class so each one is worth a lot. Also, I have to create a lesson plan for preschoolers and I have no idea what I’m going to teach. It obviously has to be nutrition based but it’s harder than it seems. Not to mention I have a knack at making things harder than they really are.

Ok, well I know its probably really simple and I'm just an idiot so I can't figure it out but I can never get the damn Lj cut to work... and since I'm on dial-up it would take half the damn day to try and search for help...sorry..